ummmm what do i ask...i mean..so many questions, like...i am not supposed to be here..yest i am...i left all that i loved back home..and here all alone....have found few friends..real close and special...1 of the considers me as his younger bro..and considers me as his bro...and the other one...we r each others wingman....they really care for me..some times more than my friends back home...... NOW HERE COMES MY QUESTION- am i that damn selfish....or is it i have become more practical...or am i that stoned at 2:30 a.m.!!! lmao i guess i wont know....

well now 2nd qestion...
when i came to bangalore, i used call my friends everyday back home and chat for 1 whole hour... now that has gone down to 2 mins in 4 days....well sometimes i think i am selfish...but look at this way ...after coming to bangalore i used call them every day.. "I USED TO, NOT THEY"!!!...so i right.....Right??i mean....may be i am just stoned..or depressed....may depressed to that extent that everything is amusing..even misery!!! may be i am loosing it!!! ha ha...if it was the old SAM..he wud have said - When did i ever have it dude....now..???Sam says - Huh??yeah rite fuck u 2!!..not that i am more used to profanity now...i was better back then....just that i have become weirdly NUmb...strangely ignorant...and amazzingly ignorant...

haha i love myself...have grown a weird liking to Ice cream...Corner house and Mama Mia rocxx...u should seriously try bluberry fields at mammia...and apple pie with ice cream and cream and apple sauce... yummmmmmm
will upload the pics in few days promise!! :)

u know...honetly ..i am happy..staying alone has its own charm....and bitterness as well...but i am optimist.. (even though i have emo hair do...and a lip piercing..and a few tattoos....still me not emo..not emotional...kinda nutts to frank..)

ummm 1 more question..

pick a colour..Green--or psy blue!!....if u ask y...and painting my room...
and also doing spray paint on 1 wall....with a potrait Kurt Cobain...and also getting a fish tank ( dilip's idea)..thinking of it making it marine...(marine = salt water fish ->more colourful) and also getting those neon lights discs have (nikhil's idea) and also planing on putting some nice cushions (yanam's idea- girlie u say....haha!!..i say chicks will dig it :D)!!!
also ...food......
i never thought i can say this but sammy hates KFC :'( and McD :'(
TT__TT
never thought i would get bored of zinger burger!!

some times i speak with meow... (check my orkut album to kno hu she is)
i miss her..only girl hu is my best friend and nothing more..i care for her like i care for somraj(read somraj>own brother)
and yes i speak with tulika as well ....

ahhhhh tulika..!!

lets leave it to that!!

ummmm

yeah i have a bought a hookah as well!!! huurraaayyy!!!

now i can smoke weed in that with vodka base...

any waz....14th of august...no wait 15th...its 3 now...

ummm...am hungry...may be caz i smoked up...
but it was not that strong....
abhilash gave it...
he is like the new dwaipayan..
haha...8 months in banaglore and already replacing my old friends..
anywaz..
gtg now..

will write something more serious and less self centered next time..

pukka se !!!

need to smoke...

aaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhh

**poof**

turns

a question for the ear, that cannot hear

a truth be told, could u bear??

 a crying baby, the still cradle

the careless mother, the true fable

the sugar melts with the stir...

the memories starting to leave a shiver....

a stranger, walking behind,watching over

she seems so right,so clear

now i fall into the hole,and i can take no more

and i fall into the hole and i can take no more

the noise has gone so soft

the grunge has died with a passing thought

the river never seemed so worried

into a death he gets carried.

Seredepity

Without you my world is a lonely place,

in this festive crowd,i look for your face.

i can not describe the way i feel

wish this moment i could steal,

i have wondered through the lanes of life,

through the thin i have survived.

forever i have known what it meant

a precious moment to be spent

you say-seredipity was us meeting

i say-meant to be,as it was written

well,call it luck or co-incidence

i will keep it close as my last cent,

i will be gone in a day or two,

thinking of you my days will go through.

impatiently,will wait for you to arrive,

and count days,and will forever strive

will think of how it would be,with you by my side

atleast that will make the wait a joyous ride

may be you will come,may be you wont

will be heart broken if you dont

will not be angry,because then i will know

serendipity was just a one day show

all is written,and none can be changed

its the dreams we see,that we defend

i will miss you,but i will smile,

for the moments we spend for a while

will thank destiny for that fortunate accident

in which we met,the moment that went

i will cry,but i will know,

our serendipity,was a one day show.